If anything this year has been a lesson. I keep playing back each and every falling out, heart break, and mistake wishing I could go back. In the end, however ,I’m defeated and I have learned the lessons they brought. Personally for me, I made a lot of relationship mistakes most of it wasn’t my fault besides the whole he’s not good for you drop him scenarios I get in which I never do what I should. I feel like the way I viewed myself and brought that on the table ultimately played the hugest card on how I treated those relationships. Not just in that area, but my life in general has been falling through the cracks. There was no growth but I will not fall through the cracks.
2016, I fell. I made mistakes, I learned, I didn’t stay on track. This next year, I am seeking growth. I want to grow as much as I can in this year. I sometimes still feel 15, or like I am standing still. I want to soar into my 20’s knowing I will fail, knowing I may get broke again, but this time open my heart up to everything. This is for me, but also for anybody who fell, lost track, and lost sight of their own loves this past year.
Relationships: For the love of the stars and the moon, stay out this year. Don’t swipe, don’t flirt, and don’t snapchat that bomb selfie you just took to ’em (post it on the story 😉 ) In order to grow, you need to grow alone. You need to allow yourself to feel the emotions, go through life, and love yourself alone. In most cases, we can tell right away when someone isn’t good for us (sometimes it’s all a disguise.) I’m the one to take chances and go out at least once with someone because of the possibility and being open to love. Still stay open to it but while you’re growing you don’t want something toxic or someone that throws you out of line and completely destroys you. Get to your point where you build yourself up so much that you are oozing out your personality. If anyone comes up and says something meant to tear you down you try not to laugh from how wrong they are about you.
Attitude: Not a morning person, never wanna be a morning person. I want to be open to myself and everyone in the morning though. This next year in order to grow you need to be able to be open to failure. The attitude that’s set depicts your whole day. Wake up get some devotionals in, meditate, read quotes. Do whatever you need to do but don’t fall into the mindset of failure even if there’s a set back speak over your life. If you believe in yourself, you will find the doors and ways to achieve the success you aim for.
Personally, I am going to speak this over my life:
You are beautiful, you are loved, you are enough, you are successful, you are a writer, you are a singer, your voice matters, laugh too much, love too much, believe in the person you want to become, if you fall get up, don’t waste your time, you have a purpose, you have a heart meant to touch others, you have a story to share, you did not wakeup to be mediocre, go chase your dreams for they are yours and yours only to reach.
Career/School: Seek everything, say yes to what feels right. The best thing to do this year is to network and build up your connections. Make a LinkedIn profile, add everyone you’ve ever met, connect with people who could potentially lead you to internships and jobs. You have one life right now in this moment, I want you to dream and achieve all that your heart wants and more. There is no reason to settle for something but you have to do everything in your power to get what you want. You can’t stop when it rains, snows, or even on a fine day. You are exactly who you’re meant to be, go be it and go achieve it. You will fail at some parts, but keep pushing through and grow.
People: This is one of the most important parts of growing outside of networking you need people. Luckily, this year I am making more friends at school and talking to more people but before I felt so lost and lonely this year. Even when I was with friends, it was on the surface type of stuff an at the end of the night I felt more alone than if I was by myself. I am so lucky to have made the best friends a girl could ever have in the world, only one of them lives back at home they range from New York to Hawaii! I think it’s super important to make friends along the way, smile at people and talk to more. I was watching this video of a girl confessing about how she got married to someone she shouldn’t have and I felt so bad for her. The main reason she said she didn’t open up and talk to any of her friends.
Don’t make that mistake find people who genuinely want to be with you and keep them in your life. Message them, snapchat them, call them up keep up with them. This past semester I was in Anthropology and I made mistakes and didn’t go to every class but when I did I sat in the same seat. Normally if you don’t know someone you sit a seat in between but there was this girl who would sit directly to my left and I never talked to her. After one of the classes I felt like I was going to fail the class but then I realized every time I’m in class she was there so I asked if I could study with her. We met up and it was a little fun I didn’t study too much and every time I talked to her it seemed we had a lot to talk about. After, instead of talking about our class I have gotten to know her and we have similar tastes and I’m excited about this new friendship! I was open to talking to someone that ended up being a friendship, I hope this comes to you and more this next year. Don’t be alone, don’t lock yourself up, love a lot. Get out there, and experience new things with people.
Yourself: All of the points comes down to this. What will you do, how will you grow? You need to go read, write, experience, walk, do something that makes you sit down and tackle every piece of you that you could improve. We are living in a world where it’s easy to be lazy, to do the minimal, and to just get by. I dream of a life where I can live, be loved, be in love, and dream out loud in my life. I can only accomplish this by being myself and loving myself. You are all here for a purpose, you all have your own dreams, you all have something that motivates you. I want you to find that this year I want you to grow this year. I want you to love yourself, be so independent and separate from how many likes you get on Instagram or if someone thinks the picture you took is good enough, because it is. You are enough. You are loved. You are beautiful.
When 2017 is over, I envision a version of myself so strong that I can now expand beyond the boundaries of everything that comes my way. I hope this touches anyone who felt a little lost, and defeated at this end of the year. You still have miles to go, people to touch, places to see, and a story to tell.
Stay updated with me!! Let me know what your own visions for the new year are, do you relate to this? What is the light you want to spread to the world? What are your dreams?