Before I can even start this blog I have to note that I have abandoned this site for about 2 years. I just rekindled with the idea and I’m loving this site. Alright here it is. My first semester at college. My expectation was the following… Perfect GPA, Great group of girl friends, Boyfriend (who I will for sure marry), healthy, happy, and joining a sorority…I was destined to be disappointed. Classes are HARD I don’t know how people have the time and energy to party on nights where they have to get up for an 8am I BARELY made it to me 11am!!
I have met amazing people, don’t get me wrong. I just haven’t found my niche. I believe that’s okay. I am great friends with my roommate, my non-roommate roommate, and others but I won’t be living with these people next year(wait…maybe who knows?). Hopefully next semester I can find them, but I am COMPLETELY fine if that doesn’t happen I love all my friends. Boyfriend? ha ha ha I haven’t met many guys who don’t cringe at the sound of that freshman year so that’s in the toilet flushed down probably polluting one of Nemo’s great-grand’s by now (I hope we can all enjoy the Disney movie reference here).
Healthy? Let’s see I have a meal plan which includes a drink and I mean am I really gonna waste $1.79 on a cup of water? Let’s get real. It is very hard to be healthy in college with what you eat, It’s easy to eat healthy many many options but the power to walk out of the dining hall and not grab a cookie when you throw your plate away is REAL. Happy…okay people deal with things differently then others that’s fine. Personally, I don’t like telling people especially people I literally have JUST met about all my struggles and what not. If you don’t have someone to talk to or a way to vent out you can get yourself really caught up emotionally.
Find what makes you happy and do it… it’s COLLEGE. At last joining a sorority which I didn’t do. I didn’t even sign up for recruitment even though I spent weeks in my senior year of high school trying to figure out everything I could but wanted to wait my sophomore year to rush. I’m a huge what will happen is meant to be, Que Sera Sera person but I wish I had rushed it seems so fun and so many girls love it.
Right now it’s the week of finals and I now appreciate the beauty of a planner, highlighters, sticky notes, and reserved library hours. If you’re wondering about my friends at home and life there just know that it’s a two way street not a one way street. You can only give so much to a person and them not give anything back that’s how friendships, and communication is lost. I try my best to reach out to friends but if I’m the only one messaging I’m bound to get busy and forget and if the other person doesn’t pick up does it really matter? I have a best friend named Claudia who lives in Florida and some days I text her, she’ll text me, we’ll snapchat, and we make it work.
Speaking of home… you do appreciate family more now that you don’t seem them. If you are in my family and reading this ily. Although my expectations in college didn’t line up to what I thought that’s okay. I realized that everything doesn’t have to be so dramatic and glamorized. With having the experiences I’ve had and being in a Living Learning Community I have grown so much as a person and made new experiences for a lifetime.